Posted in 2017, blog, blog topics, food, happiness, health, life, raw vegan, vegan, veganism, weight, youtube

Vegan, really?

Recently, within the last week, I was exploring youtube like usual and came across a Youtuber named Kate Flowers. Originally I clicked because of the relationship between her and her girlfriend but I ended up staying because of her and her girlfriends attitudes and diet. 

I stayed on YouTube for awhile and binge watched a whole bunch of her videos about being raw vegan, weightloss and how she felt eating cooked food versus raw food. 

I was immediately interested in trying it out and took the next couple of days to do a little research on other raw vegan youtubers, recipes and pros and cons and I’m pretty proud to say that I’ve been eating mostly raw vegan for the last 4 days. 

I say mostly because last night I was having a little trouble with energy so I made a bowl of pasta and on Monday I finished off my last cup-o-noodles. 

Thus far I’ve been eating massive bowls of fruit for breakfast. Peaches, sliced apples, pears, bananas and blueberries. For lunch I’ve tried to have salad or if I’m not that hungry I’ll have an apple and a few bananas. I’ve been drinking 98% water minus a blue Brisk yesterday but besides that I’m on the right path. 

How do I feel?

Well I’m gonna start this off by saying that Ive  adjusted my sleeping habits within these 4 days as well . I try to be in bed by 10pm and I’m awake no later than 8am so that explains the lathargy I feel around 2pm. Besides that I feel great. Usually things like this don’t come as easily to me because I find myself craving things but even when I have its only lasted for a second then I’m good. 

Struggles?

The only struggle I’m having currently is the fact that I bought a big bag of chicken tenders the week before last and I don’t really want to eat it but I also don’t want it here as a temptation. To be honest, chicken was just about the only meat I enjoyed everytime I ate it so not to sound like an angsty teen but the struggle is real there. 

Will I continue?

I truly think that I will. I’ve wanted to get healthy for years and that fact that this has been so effortless is helping me to do so. It’s only been 4 days so I haven’t seen any weightloss but my energy is definetly higher and my skin is clearing up which is a huge plus. 

The one thing that I’m still on the fence about is whether or not to be fully raw vegan or just vegan. Both are good for me and have massive benefits but when looking at creativity and availability I don’t know how many options I can make for myself without cooking something considering that’s what I’m used to doing and can still do sans meat. 

Anyways, I just wanted to post an update on myself. 
Next challenge-continueing to eat healthy and drink water while working because I will officially be starting a new job this friday. Success!

Posted in 2017, advice, blog, blog topics, lessons, life, thoughts

22 Things.

When I go on a date with someone for some reason I always feel the need to ask them what they’re hopes and dreams are. 

I ask them and they list it out for me then return the question. I always seem to have this elaborate 5 year plan ready to go. 

Save my money, buy my first home, hopefully a new car somewhere along the way. To be in a good relationship, to be happy. It really doesn’t seem like alot.

But now that I think about it I would’ve had this dream when I was 18 as well which would now be almost 5 years ago. Since I think the only thing that has come true from that is being in a relationship I decided to instead make a list of 22 things I’ve learned in the last 5 years. Enjoy. 

  1. No one is in control of your life except for you. 
  2. You can’t expect anything to change by sitting and waiting. 
  3. It is NOT a good idea to fuck up your taxes. This goes along with the fact that if you’re in college and not paying towards your loans yet-you still need to file for school. 
  4. “Not every sexual encounter should make you feel like you were taken advantage of.” It really messes with your mental health. 
  5. Never take an overnight (nights) trip by yourself. 
  6. Always say what you mean. 
  7. Be an ear, you never know when someone may need it. 
  8. Don’t talk shit. Karma is not only a bitch but she’s also pretty quick to retaliate. Sorry karma. 
  9. EVERY choice you make effects you in the long run and you never know how it’ll work out but your chances are higher if your choices are good. 
  10. Denim shirts don’t look good on me. Tucked in or out its just bad. 
  11. Your time is precious. Don’t waste it on anyone that doesn’t want it. 
  12. Decluttering is an extremely useful form of therapy. 
  13. Don’t take anything for granted because you never know when you won’t have it anymore. With that being said, if you lose it-don’t dwell. All that hurts is you. 
  14. Don’t be afraid to be yourself. You’ve spent your entire life figuring out who that is. 
  15. Don’t neglect your dentist. Brushing and flossing doesn’t fix everything. 
  16. Memories are important. Put your damn phone away. 
  17. Your mom is your best friend. 
  18. Make sure your arguments are worth it. 
  19. Face wash is very good body wash in times of crisis. 
  20. Adults pee their pants too. No shame. 
  21. Don’t argue about how you look. You’ve had years of seeing yourself a certain way, someone else could be seeing you through rose colored glasses. 
  22. Rough days don’t mean a rough life. You’ve got plenty of time left.
Posted in 2017, blog, blog topics, life, society

People Love Struggle.

People Love struggle. 

That’s almost the same as people love drama. 

The difference is that struggle is what can break a person down and leave them feeling raw.

Drama is more simple, people saying or doing things to get a rise out of someone. 

Struggle is life, drama is social. 

Now with the differences written out I will reiterate;

People love struggle. 

Whether someone admits it or not they will get an odd fascination from looking at struggles. 

Whether it be a post on Facebook or a friend that you keep around because they struggle which is when drama comes in. 

It’s a fascination. That’s not to say people enjoy it, they just don’t know what to do without it. 

But with that also being said people also like watching others overcome struggle because with out over coming something there is no motivation for anything. 

Posted in 2017, accountable, anxiety, blog, blog topics, good vibes, health, life, mental health, moods, resolutions, thoughts

New Beginnings.

Today I realized I spend alot of time just talking about things rather than doing them. After years of people telling me nothing will change unless you change it (mostly from youtube), I decided to do just that. 

It won’t be an overnight process but I’m prepared to make some changes when it comes to how I go about my day. 

Thus far I’ve come up with a morning and night routine to help me relax and get to sleep at a normal time so my mood will improve. 

After I’m finished with that my goals will get bigger. 

I feel like this will help me with not only my anxiety and moods but with the fact that I’ve had a lot of trouble keeping my mind straight. Hence the lack of blogs. 

I realize this post isn’t the norm but I just wanted to write this down to keep myself accountable. 

                  Wish me luck.

Posted in 2017, anger, blog, blog topics, emotions, frustration, life, love, moods, relationships, self worth, thoughts

Arms Length. 

Have you ever been in a relationship where you were kept at arms length?

Close enough so they know you’re there but far enough that you’re just holding on by a thread. 

Where going to visit is mostly going to end with you going home. 

Where the closest thing you get to romantic was your first date and maybe a text or two. 

Where everything else seems like a burden because you have to ask for it. 

Where you sit here wondering when it’s going to end because you know it will eventually. 

When you sit and wonder why you’re still doing it when you have a tattoo forever on your arm as a reminder of how enough you are. 

Telling yourself that you’ve done this before and it wasn’t right then so why is it suddenly okay now. 

Beating yourself up for letting it happen and getting played. 

Made to think that you are important but only being given enough that only makes you somewhat question why the fuck you’re still sitting here. 

What’s stopping you from leaving? You have your shoes on, you’re on your second ciggarette and your coat is on your lap but you’re still fucking sitting here. 
I wrote this blog about a week ago and at the time these were my thoughts. Since then I have built up the courage to share my concerns and figured everything out but I still wanted to post this as a reminder to myself since this has happened to me multiple times even though it doesn’t need to. 

I do not owe anyone my time if they so clearly don’t want it. 

Posted in 2017, blog, blog topics, emotions, life, love, poem, post a day, relationships, self worth, thoughts, writing

The Girl That Floats.

One day you will meet a girl.
To you this girl will seem as if she drifts through her day, floats almost.
You will watch her break down in front of everything that challenges the path she chose to take.

She will crumble into her hardships.
You will be dismayed.

One day you will meet the same girl.
To you this girl will seem as if she drifts through her day, floats almost.
You will watch her break down everything that challenges the path that she chose to take.

She will be resistant to struggle.
You will be enamored.

One day you will meet the girl again.
To you this girl will seem as if she drifts into your life, floats almost.
You will watch her breakdown everything that challenges the path you chose to take.

She will be abetting.
You will be indebted.

One day a girl will meet you.
To this girl you will seem as if you drift through your day, float almost.
She will watch you rise above everyone that crosses the path you chose to take.

She will be enabling.
You will be apathetic.

One day you will meet a girl.
One day this girl will drift out of your life, float almost.
She will leave you discarded on the path you chose to take.

She will be unburdened.
You will be humbled.