Posted in 2017, accountable, blog, blog topics, processed food, raw vegan, vegan, veganism, weight

Raw Vegan vs. Cooked/Processed.

About a week ago I wrote a blog about trying out a raw vegan diet. I didn’t think that when I started this I would see any type of result but I was wrong. 

To start at the basics and to explain what I was eating during each meal I’ll explain that the first 10 days I ate nothing except for fruit, veggies, nuts and water. Apples, bananas, oranges, peaches, pears, spinach, kale, peanuts, cashews etc. 

During that time I felt amazing. I slept better, felt physically better, used the bathroom regularly and even saw my face starting to clear up. I also had a pretty substantial amount of energy which I never expected in just 10 days of eating raw vegan. 

I will say this, I obviously didn’t experience any weightloss but I don’t see losing weight being an issue on this diet because everything felt in sync, plus I actually wanted to eat what was in front of me. I wasn’t just eating to fill a hole in my stomach.

Then I decided to turn it into a test and the last 3 days I’ve been eating what I would before while still trying to keep water the only thing that I drank. An example of this would be chicken patties with parmesean noodles, peanut butter sandwiches on white bread and even splurged today with banana pudding out of a box. 

Now, here’s the difference. Physically, I feel like shit. I have not been using the bathroom regularly and I constantly have a dry taste in my mouth. Not only that but no matter what or how much I eat out of this extremely common regular diet, I’m STILL hungry. The weirdest part though? Oddly enough, water doesn’t taste as good to me now. It’s as if my body knows that somethings up considering my drink of choice with my meals used to be Mountain Dew which has a HUGE amount of sugar. 

From my perspective I 100% prefer a raw food diet. Although it may not be something I can do constantly just because of my lack of creativity in preparing raw food but I want to incorporate it in my life as much as possible. Even if that means as cheat meal every few weeks until I can get the hang of it. 

Photo from ThatSugarFilm  which includes more information about this topic.

Posted in 2017, blog, blog topics, food, happiness, health, life, raw vegan, vegan, veganism, weight, youtube

Vegan, really?

Recently, within the last week, I was exploring youtube like usual and came across a Youtuber named Kate Flowers. Originally I clicked because of the relationship between her and her girlfriend but I ended up staying because of her and her girlfriends attitudes and diet. 

I stayed on YouTube for awhile and binge watched a whole bunch of her videos about being raw vegan, weightloss and how she felt eating cooked food versus raw food. 

I was immediately interested in trying it out and took the next couple of days to do a little research on other raw vegan youtubers, recipes and pros and cons and I’m pretty proud to say that I’ve been eating mostly raw vegan for the last 4 days. 

I say mostly because last night I was having a little trouble with energy so I made a bowl of pasta and on Monday I finished off my last cup-o-noodles. 

Thus far I’ve been eating massive bowls of fruit for breakfast. Peaches, sliced apples, pears, bananas and blueberries. For lunch I’ve tried to have salad or if I’m not that hungry I’ll have an apple and a few bananas. I’ve been drinking 98% water minus a blue Brisk yesterday but besides that I’m on the right path. 

How do I feel?

Well I’m gonna start this off by saying that Ive  adjusted my sleeping habits within these 4 days as well . I try to be in bed by 10pm and I’m awake no later than 8am so that explains the lathargy I feel around 2pm. Besides that I feel great. Usually things like this don’t come as easily to me because I find myself craving things but even when I have its only lasted for a second then I’m good. 


The only struggle I’m having currently is the fact that I bought a big bag of chicken tenders the week before last and I don’t really want to eat it but I also don’t want it here as a temptation. To be honest, chicken was just about the only meat I enjoyed everytime I ate it so not to sound like an angsty teen but the struggle is real there. 

Will I continue?

I truly think that I will. I’ve wanted to get healthy for years and that fact that this has been so effortless is helping me to do so. It’s only been 4 days so I haven’t seen any weightloss but my energy is definetly higher and my skin is clearing up which is a huge plus. 

The one thing that I’m still on the fence about is whether or not to be fully raw vegan or just vegan. Both are good for me and have massive benefits but when looking at creativity and availability I don’t know how many options I can make for myself without cooking something considering that’s what I’m used to doing and can still do sans meat. 

Anyways, I just wanted to post an update on myself. 
Next challenge-continueing to eat healthy and drink water while working because I will officially be starting a new job this friday. Success!

Posted in BDD, blog, body confidence, body dismorphia disorder, health, self esteem, self worth, weight

2am Showers Bring May Flowers. 

Body Dismorphia is a condition defined as;

Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) is an anxiety disorder that causes a person to have a distorted view of how they look and to spend a lot of time worrying about their appearance. For example, they may be convinced that a barely visible scar is a major flaw that everyone is staring at, or that their nose looks abnormal.

This is a condition that affects about 1 in 50 people. The Prevalence of BDD is somewhat small, but is still a very devastating condition to live with. It can go one of two ways, either someone can perceive a small flaw as massive or their entire body as grotesque or unnatractive. Not only this but Body dismorphia can lead to social anxiety or simply just staying out of the public eye completely. 

Now, I can go back to when I was in school and somewhat relate to this post. I was the girl in school that constantly wore hoodies or oversized t-shirts and jeans or sweat pants to cover up her body. Although back then I wasn’t as big as I felt I would still go every possible mile to disguise my body from everyone. 

I’m sure that this is a common problem among teenagers in highschool especially considering the ridicule that they get. I know that I received alot of grief from family and other students even though at the time I was more than 50 lbs lighter. All I remember is that I felt the same about my body then as I do now. 

Although I can not relate to this post as much as I would like to while offering help to anyone with this disorder I would like to say that every single one of the people I have met in my life has struggled with some kind of physical flaw. Most of the time these flaws were only seen by the person raising the complaints. Even though I completely understand that you’re the one that sees yourself everyday don’t forget that a stranger, regardless of admittance, can find beauty in almost everything. 

Don’t ever be deterred by what you see because someone else might view you as a diamond among a sea of stones. 

This post, while being written by someone who has very low self esteem, is not written by someone with diagnosed BDD.